It’s very emotional when things start to change. You can feel happy, mad, sad, frustrated and at a loss. It’s like when you want to jump into something new and find your direction. You have all these things going on in your head and can’t seem to find which way to go. It’s frustrating and over whelming! Than I start to think, if I could just pin point exactly what it is I have a passion for and devote most my time to; I got it!
I wish it were that easy. When you have obligations and real life stuff to take care of, it’s not just a matter of 1,2,3. Than again it wouldn’t be that easy even if I was single, with barely any bills and a decent amount money. Anything worth trying is going to take change and commitment. It is going to take hard work and dedication. It is going to take trying something new and not holding back to make it to that destination.
I realized that I had to make a decision to jump or be safe. I realized that you either don’t have faith or you do. I realized that you work your but off or you just don’t! I realized that trying something new is an amazing experience, that you take with you in your life. The very thing that you try, just might be what you become for the rest of your life!
Everyone gets to a point in there life, where they question; if they are on the right path to living? I don’t believe anyone is ever born saying they just want to exist in this world. They come from the womb full of life, but than life happens! The moment the body is born it begins to die! As we go through each day we are so consumed by what we have to do versus what we would like to do.
It’s hard trying to find out where you are going with your life and if it is fulfilling you as would hope. Than you start to wonder if you are actually taking action on these things that run through your mind. We all get caught up in having to pay bills, living pay check to pay check, providing for the ones we love and being over burdened by the other things that happen to us in this world. We start to lose ourselves and we start to lose our passion for living.
This is the moment we have to stop, breathe and whoo saw. Life is too short to just exist. You have to live every day like it is your last. If you went to the doctor today and he said, ” I’m sorry but you only have 3 months to live?” what would you do then? There is a way to live and still take care of your priorities. We don’t know where time is going to take us or what could happen tomorrow, but we can control today! Stop to think about how you can change your life so you are LIVING AND NOT EXISTING! Make the decision today THAT THE ONLY REGRETS YOU WANT TO HAVE, ARE THOSE THAT YOU CAN FORGIVE AND RE-LIVE! WILL YOU LIVE OR EXIST?
If you died today what would your Legacy be? Would you really be satisfied with all the things you accomplished in this lifetime? I use to think about what my future would hold when I got older. I had big dreams to become a singer and a songwriter. I was going to graduate college and than travel around the world with a big record label. I was excited just thinking about it all. Yea, I was going to be big!
Than time went by and I grew up. I was still very determined and focused on my dreams and my goals. I was at the top of my game in high school. I was on the Principals Honor Roll, Peer Leader Union, ASB, and I even tutored. I was a busy body. I believe that we make choices, but we are not our choices unless we allow them to take full control. In all my determination to become my dream I made a different decision that ended up changing my life forever.
I found out I was pregnant at 17, got lucky that it was after I graduated high school and that my first born was coming August of the following year. Wow, my life changed forever in an instant! You know what though; I didn’t let it break me. I refused to sit there and become another statistic. I went through the emotions of being hard on myself and thinking that I messed up big time. I ruined everything I ever had planned for myself and how disappointed I was in myself. As humans we tend to go through that phase of, “woe is me.” When in reality, it’s ok to feel that for a moment in time; but not allow it to over take your life.
If I would of stayed in that mindset, I wouldn’t be where I am today. I am a Marketing Manager for a huge Dental company. I have received my Financial Services License and I am on my way to receiving my Real Estate License as well. I have such huge plans and dreams for the future! I am excited to provide others with the help they need and still be able to provide a fulfilling future for my sons! Even though my dream plan has changed it is going to be fulfilling in the eyes of my children, and they mean everything to me. Everything I do, I do for them. If I never would of pushed myself or changed my state of mind, I would be just another young age pregnant statistic that did nothing important with her life. I decided to brush myself off and now I am working to leave a legacy behind for the ones I love! No matter how many times you’ve made a bad decision or got knocked down; YOU CAN MAKE IT! AND WHEN YOU DO, WHAT LEGACY WILL YOU LEAVE BEHIND?
Do you ever feel like you’re at a stand still? Like the whole world is moving at a pace and people are going some where but you feel like you aren’t? Do you ever hold your breath, just to feel your heart beat stop to remind you that you are still alive? Does anything else matter at this point when you feel like you have no direction?
The truth is there could be a number of reasons you feel your life is at a stand still. It could just be that you took a moment to take in the scene that’s in front of you; just to be mesmerized by the beauty of the land and not what’s placed in it. Than again you could be going through a job loss or a heart break and you feel there’s no where to turn to. That even when you explain yourself to people, they just don’t seem to get you. I think sometimes we don’t even understand ourselves for a moment. Yes, this all sounds confusing but when you’re at a stand still trying to find where your meant to go… the face is a puzzling expression.
or is it just me? I guess I’ll just stand here and wait and see.