Are you Living or Existing?!

 

Everyone gets to a point in there life, where they question; if they are on the right path to living? I don’t believe anyone is ever born saying they just want to exist in this world. They come from the womb full of life, but than life happens! The moment the body is born it begins to die! As we go through each day we are so consumed by what we have to do versus what we would like to do.

It’s hard trying to find out where you are going with your life and if it is fulfilling you as would hope. Than you start to wonder if you are actually taking action on these things that run through your mind. We all get caught up in having to pay bills, living pay check to pay check, providing for the ones we love and being over burdened by the other things that happen to us in this world. We start to lose ourselves and we start to lose our passion for living.

This is the moment we have to stop, breathe and whoo saw. Life is too short to just exist. You have to live every day like it is your last. If you went to the doctor today and he said, ” I’m sorry but you only have 3 months to live?” what would you do then? There is a way to live and still take care of your priorities. We don’t know where time is going to take us or what could happen tomorrow, but we can control today! Stop to think about how you can change your life so you are LIVING AND NOT EXISTING! Make the decision today THAT THE ONLY REGRETS YOU WANT TO HAVE, ARE THOSE THAT YOU CAN FORGIVE AND RE-LIVE! WILL YOU LIVE OR EXIST?

 

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What will You Leave Behind?

If you died today what would your Legacy be? Would you really be satisfied with all the things you accomplished in this lifetime? I use to think about what my future would hold when I got older. I had big dreams to become a singer and a songwriter. I was going to graduate college and than travel around the world with a big record label. I was excited just thinking about it all. Yea, I was going to be big!

Than time went by and I grew up. I was still very determined and focused on my dreams and my goals. I was at the top of my game in high school. I was on the Principals Honor Roll, Peer Leader Union, ASB, and I even tutored. I was a busy body. I believe that we make choices, but we are not our choices unless we allow them to take full control. In all my determination to become my dream I made a different decision that ended up changing my life forever.

I found out I was pregnant at 17, got lucky that it was after I graduated high school and that my first born was coming August of the following year. Wow, my life changed forever in an instant! You know what though; I didn’t let it break me. I refused to sit there and become another statistic. I went through the emotions of being hard on myself and thinking that I messed up big time. I ruined everything I ever had planned for myself and how disappointed I was in myself. As humans we tend to go through that phase of, “woe is me.” When in reality, it’s ok to feel that for a moment in time; but not allow it to over take your life.

If I would of stayed in that mindset, I wouldn’t be where I am today. I am a Marketing Manager for a huge Dental company. I have received my Financial Services License and I am on my way to receiving my Real Estate License as well. I have such huge plans and dreams for the future! I am excited to provide others with the help they need and still be able to provide a fulfilling future for my sons! Even though my dream plan has changed it is going to be fulfilling in the eyes of my children, and they mean everything to me. Everything I do, I do for them. If I never would of pushed myself or changed my state of mind, I would be just another young age pregnant statistic that did nothing important with her life. I decided to brush myself off and now I am working to leave a legacy behind for the ones I love! No matter how many times you’ve made a bad decision or got knocked down; YOU CAN MAKE IT! AND WHEN YOU DO, WHAT LEGACY WILL YOU LEAVE BEHIND?

I Refuse!

Everyday I have to take care of my priorities, before I take care of myself. I am a mother of three boys, I have cars and bills that need to be paid on time. I am someone who has to do it, even if I don’t want to do it.

For example, staying at a job that I don’t want to do anymore, but I have no choice. There is no one that can pick up the weight to relieve me. I’m ok with that, but what I’m not ok with; is doing it for the rest of my life. I refuse to live from pay check to pay check and not have a home. I refuse to sit here and settle for less and be stuck at a job that will never satisfy me. I refuse to let this world dictate my situation just because I had my first son at eighteen years old. I refuse to quit! I refuse to say it’s ok that other people can become successful, but I can’t!

No, I can! I will work it out to where I can switch to a job that will allow me to work towards my future. I will get a home for my boys by the time I’m 30 because they deserve it. My husband and I will travel the world when we get older and not have to worry about money. I refuse to believe any less! I refuse to let situations in life take my joy and my progress away from me! I refuse to let the things that people say stop me from moving forward, because one day I will be giving them part of that dream come true! They will have nothing left to say at that moment, but I refuse to boast! I will continue to stay humble and trust in God! I refuse to die and leave no legacy behind for the ones I love!

Watch me make this happen, because I refuse not to!

A Mothers Strength

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When you first become pregnant all that you have on your mind is your baby. How your baby is going to look, how your baby is going to laugh, how your going to be able to take care of such a small tiny person, and how you can’t wait to see your baby do all the amazing things they were meant to do.It never crosses your mind that one day you would be sitting in a waiting room of the Loma Linda Hospital waiting for your second born to come out of surgery.

As Mothers we think about all the good and beautiful things that are babies are going to endure; but when that moment hits that they need help far beyond your care…your whole world stops. From the time he was born, my middle son was always so happy. He was lay back, relaxed, smart and goofy. He still is everyday and every moment. These are all the things that I am keeping in my mind to keep me strong as their operating on his little body. We found out just earlier this year that he would have to get Hernia Surgery. Now for some people that may not be a big deal, but for a Mother that is one of the scariest things we could ever go through. Your precious child in harms way. Every second that he is back there feels like eternity.

For our Children we are their caregivers, their nurturers, and their protectors. So at a time like this when all I can do is leave it in the hands of God and the Surgeons I pray like there’s no tomorrow. God created us Mothers to be survivors, conquerers, inspirations; but most of all to be strong in the midst of the storm. This is where my faith and strength are tested the most; when my babies lives are on the line. I will continue to know that they will overcome and that the strength God gave me is no where compare to the hearts, minds, souls, and spirits that God blessed me with in all of my babies. They are truly a blessing to me and they are MY STRENGTH!

Humble I Will Be

I started to think about how one day life will be so great. It will be where we’ll never have to worry about having enough. I know that everybody sees life in a different way, but I tend to wonder what I can take from it as things change. I paid off my first car ever! I remembered when I got that car I had no credit and barely any money. I was riding in a clunker and kept having to put money to fix it. During this time; my two older sons were only 1 and 2.  I worked an hour away from where I lived and things just kept getting worse. I was frustrated and about ready to break down.

I decided to keep my faith through it all.  I went to several dealerships just to dream that maybe one day I could have a reliable car. I ended up at a dealership and got lucky enough that the sales men was genuinely interested in helping me; rather than trying to make a dollar. There were so many other cars that cost more, that he could of pushed me into; but he listened to my story. He decided that he would do anything possible with what I did have to make a way for what  I didn’t. This was a high end dealership and I thought to myself “there’s no way  I am going to qualify.” By the blessing of God he made it possible with only $500 and no credit. They accepted my clunker and I was able to drive away with a way to transport my children and myself with no worries.

That was 5 years ago today and several car payments later I am a proud owner of a 2009 Chevy Cobalt. I know silly right. The way I’m so excited over such a simple car. A car that is so insignificant at this time in our high expense world; but means everything to me. It is a reminder to me that working hard for the little things are so rewarding; but going through it this way will keep me humble because I know what it was like to struggle for the small things.

The point of my story is to always stay humble with the little things, because when the day comes that your blessed with the greater things you will learn to appreciate them.

Try to Understand

Try to understand we are people everyday no matter our skin color…

We hustle hard and try making a living each day. Just because you have more money than me doesn’t make you better. Just because you don’t have two nickels to rub together doesn’t make you a loser. Just because you were raised in the church doesn’t make you a saint. Just because you were raised in the hood doesn’t mean you didn’t graduate.

Try to understand I have a life to live too…

The life of someone you don’t know always has a story behind it. The life of someone you do know might have a tragic scene aside it. The life of someone you don’t know could have death or happy endings. The life of someone you do know could have forgiveness while it’s mending.

Try to understand what I’m saying is my own perception…

I was told to act this way and that; and to learn to not blow it. I was only taught what my mother or father were given and show it. I’ll continue to make my decisions as the person I am. My past is not my present I will take a stand.

Try to understand…